Body Goals

Today was my monthly weigh-in with my trainer, and guess what?

I lost seven pounds in the past month!

My trainer tasked me with logging my food intake each day, which has been extremely eye-opening. The “healthy” smoothie I made for breakfast each morning? Yeah, that baby was over 1000 calories. ūüė≥ The container of homemade trail mix wasn’t terrible…but eating it all in one sitting was. It was OOC–out of control. 

So lately, I’ve been working on eating more protein-rich, fiber-rich foods to stay fuller longer. Portion control has been a big focus as well. In the beginning it was really tedious and frustrating to log everything I ate (and honestly sometimes it still is). But lately I’ve been trying to think of it as an asset instead of an inconvenience. If this is something that keeps me on the right track, I need to do it. I don’t just want to lose weight–I want to be healthy. 

Seven pounds doesn’t sound like a lot, but it feels awesome. (I couldn’t weight to text my mom to tell her!) My boyfriend–who has a degree in exercise science–said that diet is a bigger influence than exercise when it comes to weight loss. And as much as I hate to admit he was right…he was right. I’ve seen faster results in the past month than I ever expected. #thanksbabe ūüėė

I originally wanted to lose 30 pounds before my 30th birthday, but I’m altering that body goal. I want to be healthy. I want to be fit. I want to make good food choices. And I feel like those are goals that are worth working toward. 


The Crash (A Hate Poem for Depression)

The Crash is The Crash because it hits you.  Hard.

The Crash laughs at you for thinking everything would be okay. “When has it ever been okay?  When have you ever been okay?”

The Crash wakes you up exhausted after a full night’s sleep.  Keeps you up at night.  Turns your stomach.  Takes your breath.

The Crash begs you to stay inside.  “You’re too weak to make it through the day.  You can’t even get out of this bed.”

Sometimes, The Crash wins.  You stay.  Cry.  Dry your tears. Cry. Just…cry. 

Sometimes, you can’t (won’t) stay.  You get up because you have to, need to.

The Crash vows to destroy your day anyway.  

The Crash ruins your makeup before you finish putting it on, keeps a gleeful tally of how many times you cover the tracks of tears on your cheeks.

The Crash brings you to tears anywhere:  walking into work, in the produce section of the grocery store, on a treadmill at the gym.  The Crash hopes no one notices and smirks when they don’t.  “When has anyone ever noticed you?”

The Crash mocks the brave face you put on. Chuckles when you say, text, think, “I’m fine.” “You just keep on wearing that fake smile, girl. You may fool them, but you won’t fool me.”

You work through it. You always do. But…

The Crash always happens again. 

Dog-sitting, Taking Classes, and Wrapping Up #100HappyDays

Day 96: Dog-sitting¬†makes me happy. My boyfriend planned an out of town trip, so he asked me to watch his dog while he was away. Luckily his dog and I have lots in common (specifically, a love of snacks and napping). I don’t think I’m ready for a dog of my own yet, but being a temporary dog mom has been fun. Check out a few photos of some of our adventures!

Enjoying a long walk!

Watching a rabbit. See it? (Look in the upper right corner of the picture!)


Day 97: Company picnics make me happy. My company goes all out when it comes to our annual picnic. Earlier this week I volunteered to help with pre-picnic stuff (more on that here) and the end result was spectacular! Here are some pics of (just one side!) of our celebration:

Fun activities for the kiddos! (Adult activities were on the other side of the building.)

Food tents!

Day 98: Catching up with friends makes me happy. My friend Judith was in town this weekend, so we met up for brunch at one of my favorite restaurants. We met through a work opportunity and became fast friends! Even though she no longer lives in Madison, we make a point to keep in touch. It was awesome catching up with her in person!

Day 99: ¬†Free lunch makes me happy. ¬†Today was staff meeting day and the wrap (sweet chili tofu) was so good! ¬†It tasted even better because it was free. ¬†ūüôā

Day 100:  Taking classes makes me happy.  This week, I get to take a class instead of teach a class!  I absolutely love learning and am thrilled to be the one being taught this time around.

Also…today is my last entry for #100HappyDays. ¬†This was a fantastic exercise in gratitude! ¬†Taking a step back and finding something to celebrate in every day–no matter how small–helped me to put my life in perspective and realize I’ve been blessed with an amazing life. ¬†Honestly, some days it was hard for me to come up with something more than “Waking up this morning makes me happy.” ¬†Not every day will be filled with joy–that much is certain. ¬†But I found that the happy moments outweigh the unhappy ones overall, and that’s pretty good to me.

Eating Well and Helping Out #100HappyDays

Day 94: ¬†Eating well makes me happy.¬† I’ve mentioned it a few times on the blog but for those who may not know, I’m a vegetarian. ¬†(Fun fact: ¬†July 8 was my one year veggie-versary!) ¬†I originally became vegetarian in order to eat healthier and improve my lifestyle, but quickly fell into the habit of eating very unhealthy vegetarian foods. ¬†(Another fun fact: ¬†French fries and cheese pizza are in fact vegetarian, but they aren’t the best foods for you. ¬†#TheMoreYouKnow) ¬†I’ve also been working with a personal trainer, and he encouraged me to start a food diary to keep up with the number of calories and amount of protein I’m eating (peep this post for more on that). ¬†Now I know it’s possible to have a delicious, filling dinner for under 700 calories! ¬†(Final fun fact: ¬†This does not mean I’m never going to each french fries or cheese pizza again. ¬†A lady has to indulge every now and again.)

Day 95: ¬†Helping out my company makes me happy.¬† I actually have *two* days in the office this week! ¬†And I chose to spend two hours of each one not working in my office. ¬†(That’s #assbackwards I know.) ¬†Our annual company picnic is on Saturday, and I’m helping out with advance registration. Volunteering for this internal opportunity made me happy in a few ways:

  1. I get to spend time in a part of campus that I never go to.
  2. I met three really cool coworkers that I probably wouldn’t have talked otherwise. ¬†(In a company of 9000+ people, it’s easy to work with folks you’ve never met.)
  3. I got to brush off my retail customer service skills.
  4. I got to pick up my own tickets in advance.
  5. I got a free t-shirt!

Grateful Dead and Surprise Packages #100HappyDays

Day 90:  Wedding receptions make me happy.  My boyfriend invited me to the reception of one of his good friends.  We had a great time!  My boyfriend was so handsome in his suit and meeting his friends was really fun.

Day 91: ¬†Experiencing new music makes me happy. ¬†My boyfriend is really into the Grateful Dead, and a documentary about the group came out recently on Amazon Prime, so we watched it. ¬†I enjoyed it more than I thought I would. ¬†I never knew too much about the Dead–basically that it was “hippie” music and Jerry Garcia was involved–so I liked learning more about the group and the music they made.

Day 92: ¬†Coaching others makes me happy. ¬†I’m part of a group that helps trainers improve their adult education skills, and I had a 1:1 session with one of my colleagues today. ¬†We focused on determining if trainees “got it”–she really wanted to make sure that trainees were understanding the information she taught them. ¬†It was really fun to look at another class and find ways to make the information stick.

Day 93: ¬†Surprise packages make me happy. ¬†Imagine my surprise when I go to the mailbox and see a package from my friend Kathy! ¬†She sent me a favor from her baby shower and lots of other goodies as an early birthday present. ¬†She’s into fashion and makeup, so I’m excited to try the cosmetics she included in the box. ¬†Yay for great friends!

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I can’t wait to try out this stuff!

Surviving, Snacks, and Family Vacations #100HappyDays

Day 80: ¬†Surviving makes me happy. ¬†This was my sixth day in a row of teaching customer class and my voice started going out. ¬†I was able to get through my class anyway though–sometimes you just have to be happy you made it through.

Day 81: ¬†Buying snacks makes me happy. ¬†For our upcoming family vacation (more on that below) I was in charge of buying the snacks. ¬†Who doesn’t like buying snacks?!? ¬†The hardest part was trying not to eat them before the trip (and remembering to load everything into the car). ¬†For the record, I did try to buy healthier snacks…but some s’more ingredients may or may not have made their way into the cart too.

Day 82:  Fridays make me happy.  Especially Fridays before a long weekend!

Days 83-87: ¬†Family vacations make me happy. ¬†My family and I camped near Mammoth Cave for the holiday and it was really fun! ¬†We had the most awesome RV in the park (and that’s not me bragging–people came by multiple times a day to compliment it). ¬†We hiked a trail near the cave, which was somewhat challenging in 90¬į weather with 1,000,000% humidity. ¬†But we made it–and rewarded ourselves with great food and lots of laughs. ¬†Check out the view from our campsite and my new friend Belle below!


Kentucky is so beautiful!

Victory (a.k.a. the baddest RV in the park).

Belle!  She protected us by barking at everyone who walked past our campsite.


Days 88-89: ¬†Short work weeks make me happy. ¬†That’s the awesome thing about coming back to work on Thursday–you’re already basically at the weekend! ¬†Is it bad that I’m already counting down the hours until the weekend officially starts?