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Where I’ve Been for Six Months (and what comes next)

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It’s been six months since I last blogged. I didn’t plan to disappear, but life took over, and I want to tell you how it went.

The job search

The job market is, for lack of better phrase, hot garbage right now. I submitted SO MANY applications and I never heard back from most of them. I got a few interviews–even a couple of second interviews that I thought for sure I had in the bag–and my heart was crushed when the rejection came back. I tried not to take it personally, but with an already bruised ego it felt like adding insult to injury every time. So when I finally got an offer from the Wisconsin Department of Safety and Professional Services, I was absolutely elated! I accepted the position and I really enjoy my new job. The team is great, my boss is cool, and I’m doing work that aligns with my values again.

The trips

Thankfully I had some trips planned (and paid for) before I got laid off, so my unemployment wasn’t just spent applying for jobs. I took a weekend trip to Charleston, South Carolina with my dear friend Kathy and had an absolute BALL. We ate so much delicious food, saw absolutely beautiful nature, and hit up the local landmarks. Charleston has a rich history and it was amazing to learn more about the city. My husband and I also took a trip to Atlanta, Georgia to celebrate his 40th birthday. That was a great time as well; he’s a big baseball fan so we made sure to get prime tickets to see the Braves plan. We also got to channel our inner Vin Diesel and go around a racing track in a Porsche! That was a thrill for sure…but now I’m certain “NASCAR driver” is NOT a career I ever want to go into.

The question I couldn’t stop asking

Somewhere in the middle of all this, I started asking myself if I wanted to keep making YouTube videos (and corresponding blog posts, like this one). Over and over the voice in my head would ask, “Is this even worth it?” I got really discouraged and overwhelmed with the whole process; I’d spent a lot of time shooting video, reviewing hours of footage, and editing it all (doubting myself the entire time)…to see the video only 12 views. I was so worried about thumbnails and subscribers and SEO and monetization that I forgot why I started the channel in the first place–to speak my truth and share my story with the world. So will I keep up with my YouTube journey? I don’t have a final answer yet, but making this most recent video was a good start. Sitting down to record reminded me that my channel is MY channel–I should say what I want, not what gets clicks and views. And most of all, YouTube is supposed to be fun! From now on, making videos will be a fun creative project that relieves my stress instead of causing it.

Where this leaves us

Right now, I’m in a decent place. The job loss triggered my depression and anxiety, and relationship issues made things even worse. But thanks to the support of my family and close friends, I’m much better. Stability is really important to me, and I finally feel like I’m getting back to baseline. And as a forever optimist, I’m hopefully that things will only continue to improve. I’m loving on myself for the first time in a long time and it feels so good.

If you’ve been through something similar, whether that’s a job hunt, a grand adventure, or a moment of asking “Is this even worth it?”, I’d love to hear about it in the comments. And if you want me to keep going on YouTube, tell me what you’d like to see next.

Watch the full video here: I Disappeared for 6 Months. Here’s What Happened.

I Got Laid Off–Here’s What I Learned

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In January, I celebrated my three-year work anniversary at my company. I was so proud of that milestone — proud of the team I was part of, the work I’d done on the Learning & Development team, and the relationships I’d built across the organization. Then, not even a month later, I was laid off.

I’m not going to pretend it wasn’t a shock. It was. But as I’ve had time to sit with it, I’ve found some genuine silver linings. I wanted to share them here, and in the video below, because I know I’m not alone in going through this.

Silver Lining #1: My Circle of Support Is Bigger Than I Realized

When something like this happens, you find out quickly who shows up for you. And honestly? I was overwhelmed–in the best way! Messages from former colleagues, friends I hadn’t spoken to in months, family members checking in, people in my professional network reaching out with leads and encouragement.

It’s easy to feel isolated when you lose a job. The structure of your day disappears, your sense of professional identity takes a hit, and it can feel like you’re suddenly invisible. But what I discovered is that I had built a much deeper and wider network of people who genuinely cared about me than I’d ever fully appreciated. That realization has been one of the most meaningful takeaways from all of this.

Silver Lining #2: My Worth Isn’t Tied to My Job

This one took me a little longer to sit with. So much of our identity–especially in the United States–can get wrapped up in what we do for a living. What company we work for. What our title is. How long we’ve been there.

Losing my job forced me to separate those things. I am not my job title. I am not my employer. My value as a person, the skills I’ve built, the relationships I’ve nurtured, the way I show up for people–none of that left with the layoff. And that’s something I think a lot of us need to hear, especially right now when layoffs in tech are still so common.

What’s Next for Me

I’m in the middle of figuring that out, and I’m choosing to document it here. This blog, and my YouTube channel, are going to be a place where I share the journey honestly: the job search, the uncertainty, the lessons, and (hopefully) a lot of growth along the way.

If you’ve been laid off, are in a career transition, or just needed to hear that it’s okay to not have everything figured out right now, I hope this post (and the video) helps you feel a little less alone.

You’ve got this. And so do I.

🎥 Watch the full video on YouTube: I Lost My Job in Tech (And Found Something More Important)