Y’all might be thinking, “Welp, let me get a mop to clean up the head explosion. If she was on the edge before, surely Biebs gave the final push.”
NOPE. Turns out what I needed to alleviate my tension was a full-fledged, no shame in my game dance party. So that’s exactly what I had.
I body rolled in my foyer.
I twerked on my refrigerator.
I pop, locked, *and* dropped it in the middle of my living room and it felt f*cking fantastic. I feel so much better and am ready to conquer the last day of the work week.
Work has been crazy busy lately, and it took a toll on me. Between all day customer classes, exam reviews for internals, required meetings, and ton of other commitments, I barely had time to breathe. There were someseveral days during that two week period where I didn’t eat anything all at work because there simply wasn’t time for it. After work, I headed home to take care of household duties–laundry, dishes, meals, and caring for my fiance and our three boys. I was exhausted physically and mentally. Emotionally, I was a wreck–I was so overwhelmed with everything on my plate, constantly a few seconds from tears.
Then I started listening to Pitch Perfect radio on Pandora and I finally found some clarity.
No, it wasn’t the a capella covers and Glee mash-ups that brought me some sanity. It was a single song, Titanium by David Guetta ft. Sia. This song was all over the radio when it came out in 2011; it was also covered in the movie Pitch Perfect (hence why it showed up on my Pandora station). It’s more of a dance song, which probably explains why I never really paid attention to all the lyrics–too busy shakin’ my groove thang–but the words in the song really gave me strength during a time when I was feeling especially down.
“I’m bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium”
Titanium: the stuff airplanes, spacecraft, and missiles are made of. Talk about being able to handle tough situations.
After hearing that song a number of times on the station and finally listening to the lyrics, I realized that I *am* titanium. Even with the 12-hour work days and endless amount of chores to do at home, even with the stress and competing priorities, no one can knock me down but me.
“You shoot me down, but I won’t fall–I am titanium.”
I'm a writer for the lovers, dreamers and believers. For the hope give-ups and the heart beat-ups. If you live to read rhyme, you will love the lines in mine.
